Keep that puzzle piece.

If only you could see the damage you have done to my heart.  Everyday I put another piece back into place like a puzzle.  Eventually all the pieces will go back into place and I will be able to see the clear picture.  But wait, where has that one piece gone, it has been missing for a while.  Oh thats right you have it and always will.  A piece of my heart that I will never get back thanks to you.  My heart will never be the same.  And when I look at this puzzle, that one piece will always be missing, a constant reminder of what we had and what we could of had. Then someone new will come along and hopefully they don't end up stealing another piece from my puzzle.  Which they probably will and next time maybe I will leave the puzzle in pieces, so I won't be reminded of all the missing pieces and how that picture will never be the same.

Love

Love is a scary thing!! You give someone your heart and they say they won't break it but usually end up doing that.  I've learned after my breakup that this was ment to be and I don't regret a single thing that happened.  Even though I am still confused, there is no point at trying to figure out what went wrong.  Everyday I am getting stronger and can think about him without crying.  Even though I still cared alot about him, it would be my biggest mistake to wait around for someone that I'm not sure will come back for me.  I'm going to college this year and there are so may fish in the sea, I'm bound to catch at least one.  This relationship has taught me that I deserve to be treated better because I have feelings too.  I've learned to speak up and that relationships are based on both of your feelings not just one person.  You think you'll never get over your first love and keep hoping they will change their minds and come back for you.  But one day you will wake up and say yes I am over you and I can do so much better.  Sex and the City has funny enough helped me with my breakup.  It has shown me that you will have alot of men that break your heart but it will be all worth it in the end, because there will be that one person that will come along and you will never have your heart broken again.  But most importantly all you need is your friends.  No matter who or how bad someone broke your heart all you need is a great group of friends to get you through it!!

Heartbreaks don't break even!!

Well I've known this boy for almost a year and we were just friends going to prom together.  Started talking more and before you know it we were dating.  This boy was someone I felt soo comfortable with and always laughed a ton whenever I was around him.  Lets be honest, I haven't had the best luck with guys or pushed them away because I have a big trust issue.  But for some reason I couldn'tt push this boy away.  Everything was going great for almost two months then once it was summer for him, I felt him changing.  Ignoring my texts and not spending time with me. He felt it was ok to ignore me and then say goodnight I love you and everything was ok.  But when I spent time with him it was like nothing ever happened.  He said he didn't want to get too attached because he has experienced what happens when your with someone all the time. Then after telling me this those goodnight texts started stopping also and would go days without even texting me.  The day we broke up I asked him if he wanted to be with me and he said yes, then that night he said it was personal and I did nothing wrong.  He only has feelings for me and doesn't expect me to wait for him and wants me to be happy but it would break his heart if and when I do move on.  I am to this day still confused.  I had so much axiety waiting around for him and thinking I wasn't good enough to hang out with him.  I think it was for the better for my well being.  It gets better everyday but there are those days where I wake up in the middle of the night to check my phone for those goodnight texts and have to remember we are done.  We're still friends and he does text me.  I can't wait for him and I'm already moving on even though it is hard.  And when I find someone else I'm scared he is going to come back for me and it will be the hardest thing to turn him down but he should have never let me go in the first place.  I hate him for treating me the way he did but I hate myself more for still caring so much about him!!